An Emotional Week… or So
Posted By Jacque on November 21, 2009
In the past few months, we have had a lot of death in our family and on our farm. I know they have been learning experiences and times to draw on Yahweh himself and also draw closer to each other. In the past month, we have had 2 Grandfathers pass away and a new Baby Boy born in between.
Samuel, our 9th blessing, was born on Saturday the 7th. He was 10 days early. His birth was really rougher than I expected, however, but at least I got the blessing of a beautiful, healthy Little Guy. My Grandfather was put into hospice care on the following Monday, after having been ill and in a nursing home, then returning home much better. He passed away then on the 15th, about a week later. It is all quite confusing to us still, that he was getting better, then he was put into hospice and gone in less than a week. I think we had prepared ourselves, because Yah kind of let us know in our spirits that there was something about it we didn’t know.
His wake was Wednesday, and we were not sure we were all going until around 4 pm. At 2pm, I was not sure taking Samuel, Lucy and Caleb was what was the best thing, and I called Matt and asked him, and we discussed it and decided to talk more when he was off of work. The dilemma was not that I would regret going. I just didn’t want to regret not staying home. I was concerned about the 6 hours of being gone with a new baby with 4 hours of it driving. We also usually have puking toddlers on car trips, and going to an event like that, arriving after having puking children is not what you want to do. Add to that any people who might have taken the flumist, and we had to weigh it all out. I knew I would just keep Samuel with me. I figured I could just do that and not worry about the flu. Yahweh is much better able to keep us than any of us are. I had several friends praying for us, and I sure knew it. Samuel really did well, sleeping for most of the trip there and back, and we also made sure to feed and rest the Littles for a time before we left and put Lu in a different carseat, and had no puking! 
I was glad I went and was able to visit with family and talk to Grandma. We arrived late, but when we got there, she said, “Ahhh… here they are. Here’s my family! Here they are.” She was about in tears when our children handed her the a dozen roses, and she said she hadn’t gotten roses in over ten years. Oh, I love that woman. What a blessing to our family! And to think that just a few years ago, she didn’t want me to bring all six of our children over to her house because it was just too much for her to handle!
Thursday, then, Matt took the oldest five children to the funeral while I stayed home with the three Littles and got Samuel’s PKU. I just couldn’t go that far again. I am sad to have missed the 21 gun salute, and they told me my Uncle was sobbing. So were my girls… Matt said my Grandmother looked like she aged overnight. Then, today would have been their 68th anniversary, had he made it another week of life. However, I am thankful that I know he knew Messiah, and accepted him into his life. I know we will meet again!
My Grandfather was a great hero to my children. I am so thankful that they got to know him and he was Grandpa to our children and not just an older relative they heard about. They all knew and loved him very much. He was a really terrific Grandpa. He loved children. He used to get down on the floor – at 80!! – and play Go Fish with our children. I will never forget that. We have missed him for a long time now, because he has been ill for the past year, but now, he is so missed….
I think my Grandma is going to do ok. Friday would have been their 68th anniversary, though, and I am sure that was very hard on her. My girls are very concerned about her. My sister stayed with her last evening, and she was able to talk to her and share things that I know Grandma needed to share. Yahweh is so very good to us. I feel so very blessed at how my Grandparents came alongside our family and loved us so much, especially in the past few years. It was truly a Yah thing.
Overall the past few months have been VERY emotional. I have been surprised at how emotional I have been. I don’t usually cry at the slightest thing, even in the weeks after a baby, but some things you just cry about I guess. I am thankful for my family who Yahweh has given to me.
Anyway, if you would like to see photos of Samuel, I posted a couple here and there are other links to other photos.
Blessings~
Jocelyn’s post to her Great-Grandfather: Goodbye for Now
Amanda’s Post: I Miss Him!
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Thanks for sharing your ups and downs…… it reminds me I am not alone.
What a beautiful photo of grandpa as a U.S. soldier! We owe our Veterans
so much respect. I am so glad the trip with the children went well. I only
have two… and it is challenging. So to see you managing more children…
and sharing your journey is very uplifting and encouraging to us younger
mothers. I pray emotional healing for you all…. we too have lost many loved
ones in the past three years.
Kathy
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((hugs))
You know when my Grandma died in Sept it was the same thing. She had been ill and in the hospital and then healthy and home for about 2 weeks and died suddenly.
It was hard to understand why, but ultimately we just had to know that it was the time God choose to take her home.
It’s definitely a hard thing.
((hugs)) again.
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Oh dear Jacque….I have so been praying for all of you through this time! I am glad to hear that you had a blessed time with family despite the circumstances. That was so sweet about the dozen roses. Awwwww! I am praying for your grandma too. Thanks for sharing with us how the trip went. Love and hugs.
-Jaime Lynn
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Congratulations on the birth of Samuel. Our newest edition to our family, a baby girl, arrived on the 7th of Nov. also. She too like Samuel was early, by a month and a very different birth (c-section do to being breech). This was our 6th child. I have followed your blog for over a year but I don’t think I have ever left a comment. I thought I would share about this. GOD BLESS your family.
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Many prayers for your family Jacque. I know how hard it seems right now, but you are right to lean on Yehovah. And your grandmother, she sounds like an amazing woman! I know Yehovah will wrap her in his arms and help her in this painful time.
Hugs
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You have been on my heart a lot in this season~I don’t know HOW you have coped with it all or even made that trip out-of-town, but OH after reading of its importance to your Grandma, I’m glad you did. Recovering after birth for me has been very different and much, much more difficult this time. I am OKAY! but still not quite back to myself at one month (today!), and for you to have soo much going on so soon… You are just on my mind with love and a prayer. (((((HUGS))))) sandi
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November 28th, 2009 at 1:46 pm
I just really have so much to do. So much. Weird thing I don’t feel guilty not doing a lot of it so I can hold Samuel! I am at peace and trusting in Yahweh to order my days, I suppose.
I can’t believe she is already a month old!! I was just telling Jocelyn this morning that Samuel will be 1 month on the 7th! It goes way too quickly!
Thank you for your love and thinking of me. May Yahweh bless you for your love and prayers sweet friend!
May you all be blessed!
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I know that this is old, but your post about brought me to tears! I’m so sorry for your loss… You are so blessed to have gotten to know him before his death! What a legacy of love he has left!
To the KING be all the glory!
Rebekah
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